What Do They See?

When my kids look at me, what do they see? Do they see the things I tend to believe about myself? My self-hatred. My insecurities. The lies I allow myself to believe. Or, do they see a woman who believes she is wanted, cherished, loved, brave, and beautiful? Do they see the woman God sees?…

For He Has Taught Me More

Whatever is good and perfect is a gift coming to us from God our Father, who created all the lights in the heavens. James 1:17 "Mommy! Mommy! Mommy!" I hear the screams in the wee hours of the morning. The screams that have woken me from a state of sleep I seemed to have just…

Autism Came to Play

Autism came out to play today. It accompanied my boy down the steps of the bus. Followed its afternoon routine perfectly, never altering his course, until some unknown thing slowly created a fuss. Autism came home with Hunter, even though he wasn't invited to stay. Smiles quickly turned to tears. Tears to wails. Why? Who knows.…

Every Single Strand

And the very hairs on your head are all numbered. Matthew 10:30 It is no secret that our home has been a breeding ground for one "learning" experience after another. So, it is no surprise that our home would start to breed other things as well. Like…lice. Yes, I know. Yuck. Gross. My thoughts exactly!…

The End of My Rope

I've tried everything and nothing helps. I'm at the end of my rope. Is there no one who can do anything for me? Romans 7:24Recently my parents transformed their wooden bench swing into two wooden seated rope swings. Before they moved from the home in which we spent many years, my brother, son and I…

Relax and Thrive on Crazy

"The only true gift is a portion of thyself." Ralph Waldo Emerson I have started to notice something about myself in recent years. Relax? It's not necessarily something I know how to do. From one job to two, schoolwork to ministry, kids to housework, to being a wife…well, there isn't much time to relax. When…

Being a Mom is Tough…Period!

"The world is full of women blindsided by the unceasing demands of motherhood, still flabbergasted by how a job can be terrific and torturous." Anna Quindlen Last week, I shared my heart about the struggles, heartache, misunderstandings, and even envy that can come with being the caregiver of an autistic child. While, I don't regret…

The Wails of the Lonely

The Lord hears his people when they call to him for help. He rescues them from all their troubles. Psalm 34:17 I recently had a conversation with a fellow mom about the chaos that often comes with motherhood. As we stood together talking, and as the conversation moved forward I began to share some of the struggles I…